I was inspired to write this post by a good friend check out his blog at http://omarmichaelfrazier.typepad.com. I am not a daddies girl, in fact I can't even relate to what it feels like. My mom has been with my step dad since I was three years old. While he has been the best dad he knows how, and have taught me many things there is an emptiness. My mother left Arkansas when I was 1 month old leaving my dad behind. He came to visit my sisters and I when I was around 4 or 5 years old that was the last time I saw him face to face. He has called over the year on occasion, and I have gotten to ask all the question I want about our relationship. However, Because I was so young when my mom left he and I didn't have a bond. This caused me to wonder what it would be like to have him raise me, and made conversation awkward. In other words I didn't miss him, not until a few years ago. I grew up feeling like things happen, so you have to forgive and move on.
Our parents are human and make mistakes in life too. Besides I had no reason to be mad at him for not being there all these years. My parents where both young, and in love when they divorced.Everyone has to go through life and learn it's lessons. They are still in love with each other even though they have both been married for years. When I speak with my dad all he does is tell me how much he loves my mom. This bothered me at first because we have already lost so much time in our relationship. Why waste it talking about mom, but I let it go.
How has this all affected me? Well now that I am grown and can see my baby girl interact with her father I understand. I missed a lot with my dad the moments when he is tickling you under your arm, and you share a special nick name. I watch my daughter with her father and the joy in her eyes makes it all worth it for me. I missed it but she got it, and that's what count.
It took me some years to fully understand what it mint to be loved by the opposite sex. I had to learn the hard way that you can't be naive with men. I am a very friendly person and meet people easily. This can be taken the wrong way by men if your not carful. I also learned that being a female if you don't have male figures around men will try to take advantage. With all of this said I still love my dad and look forward to us one day getting to spend time together.
My advice for any woman out there who can relate to my story always forgive, because every moment counts. Every moment that you have to tell your parents I love is special, and worth it. While getting to know someone that you don't know can be hard I am up for the challenge. I love my father!
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